The KISS...❤

Story of a night

After walking for a while I stopped under the tree lighted with fairy lights, and she too stopped two steps beside me. She was looking at the pond beside us which was glowing in a beautiful pattern.

“What are you thinking?’’ I asked after noticing her for almost an hour that she was lost somewhere in her own contemplation.

She said naively looking at me with her wide confused eyes, “Thinking for an excuse that can stop you from going.”

“Got any?”I asked smiling at her innocence.

“Maybe…..That…. I want to talk to you daily….. Daily.”She said in full confidence. Her first excuse perhaps.

I simply smiled at her innocence again, shook my head a little, and said “You have my phone no. right?”

“I want to talk to you by seeing you”. She said the other one with more confidence and immediately after my question finished.

“V I D E O …C A L L….” I reminded her looking around.

“I want to feel you nearby me.”She displayed another excuse in a little irritated manner and in a big question that I must have an answer for this too.

I nodded at her sentence and a smile came on her face as if she had finally got the way. Her eyes were asking me the same question, was I convinced?

I leaned towards her and whispered in her ears “I will gift you my regular perfume.”

I literally couldn’t stop even laughing this time. The smile on her face vanished and she got underway to think of another excuse. She was enormously in her contemplation again. She was looking ravishing in the yellow fairy lights. The resort named ‘beautiful’ in the area was nothing in front of her. Even at 1 AM, her face was glowing as if the Fairy was gifted with this. The white plain frock with black thin belt ends above her knees adds more beauty to her open hair. I couldn’t help but simply stand in front of her and stare, staring at her confused beautiful face, staring at her hands playing with her hair, staring at her eyes blinking more than usual. I was just staring at her and capturing her for those helpless moments when she won’t be with me. She was the smartest girl on the earth but at this time when I was about to take the flight in an hour, she was a lot confused and willed to stop me by any relevant or irrelevant excuse. I also never wanted to go. To go for the rubbish every time business meeting which my Dad couldn’t attend because he is far away for more important meetings and of course, to go by leaving such a beautiful girl.

I decided that this time whatever will be her excuse, I will approve that. Even though we both knew that I couldn’t stay but still watching her so tense for just an excuse was killing me.

“OK.” She said in little nervousness “I want to touch you every time I talk to you.”She smiled and raised her eyebrows in full confidence hoping that I won’t be having any sarcasm for this.

“Okay” I was impressed because I didn’t have any questions about that. Except for one, “And How?”

She smiled a little, touched my hand, and slowly took that on hers “Maybe like this.” She said while her eyes were still on our hands which she gasped softly.

I strengthened the grip and grabbed her suddenly towards me. Her other hand eventually came on my shoulder. I placed my other hand soothingly, swiftly on her waist, and pulled her closer. “Not like this?” I whispered. She didn’t answer but I could feel the nervousness on both sides. She was maybe more nervous than me. I could even feel my body temperature was not normal anymore. I could feel the warmth in me.

Her face was still not facing me but the grass beneath us. I shifted my hand slowly, calmly down her waist till it reached the end of her thin belt, which was maybe around two centimetres in width. With another hand, I raised her face from her chin. Her eyes were closed and her face was glowing. There is a thing about beauty; you can never explain it in words. Call it marvellous, mesmerizing, ensnaring, stunning, smashing, charismatic, enchanting, or breathtaking, it goes even beyond that. I was also deprived of the words to describe her. Only my feelings that moment, that particular moment could delineate how she was looking and how she was driving me.

Without saying a word I wanted her to open her eyes and I don’t know how she listened. She opened her eyes taking her own juncture and the time stood still. So were we. She was that close to me never before and I was that anxious, never before. My eyes could see nothing but hers, and I could feel nothing, not even the wind between us, what I could feel was just her. I could scent her perfume and even hear her heartbeats so clear.

Her intense eyes which could speak everything were silent and her lips were looking amazing in that dim light. I had tried to slave my senses even before and I succeeded too, but don’t know why this time it seemed like I would face a terrible defeat. I leaned towards her the left possible and she closed her eyes again. It was not planned and was not even my intention but everything which was going on between us was beyond my control. I was about to kiss her.

I grabbed her more tightly with one hand and placed another delicately on her cheek. There was no thought, not a single thought was coming into my always-on mind. The adrenaline was rushing in my veins and I was completely hypnotized by my incomprehensible brain. This was the moment. The moment I was going to kiss her, kiss an angle in a person, kiss the love of my life or I should say my ‘life’.

I closed my eyes and in the meantime she interrupted.

“Raj.” She said in such a fainted voice that I couldn’t have heard it if I was not that close to her.

“Shh, don’t move. It’s my first.” I reminded her.

I don’t know whether she heard me or not but she pushed me back with great force. With such great force that I could even fall into the pond but somehow my gripped shoes saved me. I bet she was so strong that I was swimming in the pond if I were barefooted.

“Please don’t.” She almost ordered looking at the ground again.

“What’s so wrong?’’ I asked while gaining back all my consciousness.

“We can’t do this. Can we? How can I …….no Raj. This is just not right.” She said looking at me with pain in her voice. The pain of betraying her parents, she was more concerned about.

I saw her wet red eyes and felt so guilty about my action. I wanted to explain to her but that was worthless. I went towards her and hugged her loosely. I wiped her tears with my finger.

“First you have to ask my Dad about us. You know that.” She said facing me.

“Yeah. I promise, the day I will be back, I am going to talk to your father.” I ensured her and added “I am sorry. I promise that won’t happen again.” I apologized with great regret. She shook her head; in the intention, I should not feel so sorry.

I knew her with that and I also respect her a lot. The most amazing thing between us was, every time I meet her, I get to know about things I never knew before. And this was my favourite part because it makes me love her even more. I even do understand that she was the typical Indian girl, my girl.

“ I love you.” I looked directly into her eyes and portrayed my every time feeling for her.

“I know.” She said and smiled. I took her hand into mine, kissed on that and we both laughed.

“Please miss me.” She added.

I just nodded.

That was my first ALMOST kiss.

- RITIGYA SHREE